I grew up in a traditional Protestant family. We went to
church every Sunday. Every year my family went to a Christian
family camp where people of all ages came to go “farther
out with Jesus” – to a retreat. Every year after
that camp my family would “get serious for God.”
But slowly we would settle back down into our daily routines
and the cares of life would come upon us, and the emotional
high from camp would wear off. For me camp was like my gas
station. But I would run out of gas way before the next
camp.
In high school, I questioned a lot of what I heard in
church and even at that camp. I started seeking outside
of Christianity for spirituality. In college I mixed Jesus
into every different religion and philosophy that I tasted.
I started to use drugs as a means for religious/mystical
experience. I always believed that Jesus was there with
me, as well as Buddha, Ghandi, Timothy Leary, Jerry Garcia,
etc.
At the end of my first year I had decided to actually
read the entire New Testament. I started with the gospels.
By this time I had HIPPIE-FIED Jesus. I read and read and
I couldn’t put it down. There were things that Jesus
said that I had never heard in church or at camp. I read
about the radical love He had. How He traveled and spoke
of the Kingdom of God, having no place to lay His head.
How His disciples abandoned everything to follow Him. When
I began reading Acts I got more excited. I read in chapters
2 and 4 that they shared everything and lived communally.
I began to attend a Pentecostal church as well as a home
group Bible study. That summer at camp I was convicted of
my pot smoking and seeing Jesus as a hippie mystic. I straightened
up and became zealous for God, attending services and meetings
every time I had a chance. At one Bible study I was sharing
about how the first disciples lived communally, and a woman
there told me about a church that lived that way in the
’70s and they were still fairly communal today. Immediately
I went there to spend a few weeks. I read a book about how
that community began. I was fascinated. Although they no
longer lived together there was always something going on
in that church. There I got caught up in the nostalgia of
the Jesus Movement of the ’70s. I immediately joined
the church and moved to that town.
I would ask from time to time about what it was like when
they lived together. I would get responses like, “It
was too hard; we couldn’t do it,” and “I
didn’t like other people having their say in my family’s
life.” When I would express my burden to live together
and share everything, they would fondly say, “Oh,
you should have been here 30 years ago,” and “You
were born in the wrong generation.” But some would
say, “Go ahead and try.”
I was willing to make the sacrifice, but I couldn’t
find others who were willing. I would wonder how they could
say, “It’s too hard.” Isn’t the
Holy Spirit strong enough to bring it about? Isn’t
God’s love strong enough? Eventually I didn’t
think so much about Acts 2 and 4 and living together. I
just went with the flow in my church.
A few years went by and while attending a Messianic Jewish
conference in a neighboring city, a flicker of hope came
to me. I went outside for some fresh air and met a couple
of men who told me that they lived in a community of believers
who lived like Acts 2 and 4. One of them said he used to
be a pastor of a Pentecostal church and he gave it all up
to live in this community. I was astonished to hear of a
pastor quitting his pastorate to live out the New Testament.
Immediately I was drawn to them. I talked all about them
to the people who took me to the conference.
So the first chance I got I took time off of work and
went to visit. It didn’t take long to see that it
wasn’t a certain set of rules that held them together,
or a charismatic guru-type person persuading everybody.
It was true, genuine love! It was the kind of love that
I wanted but had never seen before, the kind of love that
called all to live for others, not themselves. They had
the heart to give up everything and make the sacrifice that
it takes to live out Acts 2 and 4. It was the genuine love
of God that was poured into their hearts.
I quickly saw that is was not some utopian hippie idealistic
dream, but down-to-earth reality. I saw where the rubber
hit the road. I saw that though I was willing, I did not
in myself have the kind of love that it takes to live that
life. But I wanted it. I wanted a clean new start. I wanted
to be truly saved from my sins. I wanted to be able to love
like Jesus loved, as I saw demonstrated there. I knew they
were the only ones who had it, so if I wanted it, I would
have to get it from them.
They told me that I could get it from Him, the real down-to-earth
Jesus whom they called by the name Yahshua.
I could have the same Holy Spirit that they had if I would
give my life to Him and make the sacrifice to build His
Kingdom. That sacrifice was my life, my own sovereignty.
I had to make Him Sovereign in reality, and live it out
every day by loving and sharing with the community of God.
So down I went into the waters, being cleansed and set free
from my sin, and up I came with a resurrected life to give
totally
to my King and my new family. Now every day I can serve
Him where He is (John 12:26), and love my brothers as He
teaches (John 13:34-35; 1 John 3:14-19). I am so thankful!

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